Shadow work
Six exercises, one from each room. Pick one, write slowly, and keep what you write. The point is not insight on the page. It is the next time the charge arrives and you recognise it.
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Before anything else. What you wrote sounds heavy. This desk is not the place to carry it alone. If you might act on thoughts of ending your life, contact emergency services now. Find a line in your country at findahelpline.com. In Argentina: 135 (CABA and GBA) or 0800-345-1435, Centro de Asistencia al Suicida; 911 for an emergency. If you have a therapist, bring them this entry.
What you have kept
The desk is for self-inquiry. It is not therapy and does not replace one. Old trauma in particular is better opened with a trained person in the room. See the caution.